A Second Chance

Went with the Christian Union to All Souls Church tonight for a special function: Only One Life. It’s a gathering of all the CUs in London, worshipping the Lord together and encouraging each other to live our Uni years for the Lord.

We were reminded that:
1) We are strengthen by God’s grace;
2) We need to share what we have learnt/heard with others;
3) We will face difficulties/”hardness”;
4) We need to be single-minded in our mission to share the gospel; and
5) We have to persevere because we may not see the fruits of our efforts in the short term.

But what touches me most these evening is a realization that God is given me a second chance to live life as a student and to glorify Him during my Uni days...

My undergraduate days were not exactly the happiest moments in my life. In fact, it was one of the darkest periods in my life, and I seldom share about it. It was the year after mum passed away and also when I decided to break up with my first boyfriend. There were a lot of heartaches, self doubts, feeling of loss and insecurities. I didn’t interact much with people and I studied very hard coz good academic results was all that I have and made me feel secured.

God is gracious. With time, wounds were healed. And I seldom looked back, though sometimes, I do feel a bit regretful that my undergrad days were so uneventful and I never did anything for God. Tonight, it struck me that God has presented me with a chance to be a full-time student again. Am I going to do something for Him this time?

I am excited, but I don’t know how to begin and what I must do. How should I shine for Him? How to be the salt and light? I am shy and I seldom talked to people about God.

I guess, the persons I interact with most are my housemates and I do hope to take care of them and love them as my little sisters. I want to listen to God’s voices in my heart and be a blessing to people around me. I will try!

Dear God, thank you for giving a second chance. I want to live for you. And may you use me in the way you want and make me a blessing to those around me. Amen.

[Afternote: Amazingly, the day after I said the above prayer, I had a chance to share with my housemates some matters relating to Christianity and I found myself so ill-prepared for that! :) Having been in a Chinese Church for 27 years, I had difficulty expressing Christian concepts in English! Haahaa.. I am determined to work harder in this area!]